live, love, laugh. Just the way I like it.
They say everything happens for a reason but what if the reason, whatever it is.. is not enough a reason to justify whatever that is happening?
That little chat with mum made me realize how I was as a child. She explained how different her little girl behaved when we're all in a group with other kids back when I was barely seven. Other children would build sandcastles, fix legos, or change Barbie dresses but I was nothing like that. And I laughed when my older cousin, Janice told me how she had to finish up the leftover on my plate just because I took forever (almost 2 hours) to chew my food and my dad would scream if he saw that the amount of rice remained the same after so long -__-"
God, this is embarrassing.
On a side note, I was reading a book today and the page on depression got me thinking.
It said, "you are most probably clinically depressed if you answer more than 5 YESes --you know, like those pop quizzes some of us like answering to see how high we score" and I thought, well..the book is probably right.
I answered YES to these:
- If your appetite goes up and down (you eat a lot or if you eat too little)
- If you can't sleep or if you sleep too much but still energy deprived and feeling lethargic
- If you feel sad or cry easily and can't control negative thoughts
- If you are easily irritable and agitated
- If you experience loss of interest in daily activities that you enjoy or find pleasurable
But then again, almost everyone (I know) would be clinically depressed if this was true =P
It also got me thinking what it would be like if we were on a separate path.