Rachel Kristen
live, love, laugh. Just the way I like it.
Of rotten apples and pep talks.
Had the urge to write something. I think the whole writing to empty my heart out thing is actually working *in denial* Anyway, I had a great time today. Met my cousin whom I have not seen in a while for lunch and we ended up chatting for hours, shopping at the bazaar at Jaya One and I got both of us this:
Super cute rotten apple! hahah reminded me of Snow White for a moment.
It has been a few weeks since I laughed my heart out with no worries in mind so it felt great! Hoping for many more days like this.
We also visited my aunt today and went to this super awesome Hokkien Mee shop that she was craving for. A shop with a predictable restaurant name-- "Restaurant Damansara Hokkien Mee" I lol-ed when I saw their menu with the restaurant name printed huge above a picture of..... (yes you are right!) Hokkien noodles hahah
Salivating just by looking at it! Super yummy!
We got them to serve it with two raw eggs so it would taste better when mixed with the hot black noodles. In case you're wondering, the restaurant is located opposite Jin Xuan (famous dim sum franchise) in Kota Damansara.
My aunt has always been one woman that I respect the most. People often say that blood is thicker than water. It means that family ties are always stronger than the non blood related. In a way kind of true although if you had asked me months back I would disagree. After growing up knowing my family for the entire 23 years of my life, I see our similarities. The women in our family have one thing in common; we are all level headed.
We have a lot of strength in us when it comes to pursuing our goals in life. We fight with our might, with fire in our eyes. We strive for the best in everything we do. And we want to make the best out of our lives.
So I was talking to my aunt and she shared her thoughts with me after all that she has been through. I admire her strength and independence, being able to not fear and take risk not knowing what is up ahead. I hope it runs in our blood too.
She taught me that life is fragile. One moment we are in our twenties, and next we are in our thirties, so on and so forth. One decade after another in a blink of an eye. She told me how she had wasted 20 years of her life, doing things she was not happy with and finally only recently that she took a step down another road. And she is finally a happier person.
She is a primary example that life goes on no matter what happens. And where relationships are concerned, she too like myself believe that if we really want something, we would find a way to make things happen. It is easier said than done because words are after all..just words. But she told me exactly what was already on my mind. That at the very least give it our best shot. If you have already give your best and if it works out then good but if you have tried your hardest but things do not go the way they turn out then it is probably for the better. As long as we do not live with regrets and hesitate with choices that we could have made.
A mother only wants what is best for her child. But as much as she dotes on her child, she needs to know, that there are limitations and learn how to draw the line between the reality versus what she had hoped for her child. What her child really needs. Only through this can the child be genuinely happy because after all, a guardian cannot be there to guide forever. Speaking of which, my mum told me the same thing earlier this year. That no matter what I do in life, do it if I have the passion and drive. Don't do it for her, or for my dad, but for myself. My future, my life and decades to come. This is why I love her so, for being very supportive all this time. She surprises me at times.
"A strong character and a man who knows what he wants in life would be good for you," my aunt said. Okay, trust the experience woman lol! Then again, that is pretty darn subjective. What might be strong in my eyes might not be to someone else. After all, beauty is in the eye of the beholder, no? I may see someone as perfect, talented, loving, strong willed and purposeful. But he may just fail my judgment and prove me wrong. Then it made more sense as she explained why. A man who loves you and wants to have a future with you will stand firm no matter what, come rain or shine. It is not a fairytale, unlike in the movies. But it is possible.
I replied with a smile.
When the going gets tough, the tough get going. I shall keep this in mind.
P.S Forgot to mention, tonight I had also booked our trip to Perhentian!
Super excited, so tonight I will be dreaming of the blue waters and white sandy beaches.
